In the bleak Winter of Puritans, hellfire seems inviting!

Inside this flesh

2007-10-15T03:27:07Z

Now sleeps the Crimson petal, now the white;
Nor waves the cypress in the palace walk;
Nor winks the gold fin in the porphyry font;
The fire-fly wakens: waken thou with me.

Now droops the milkwhite peacock like a ghost,
And like a ghost she shimmers on to me.

Now lies the Earth all Danae to the stars,
And all thy heart lies open unto me.

Now slides the silent meteor on, and leaves
A shinning furrow, as thy thoughts in me.

Now folds the lily all her sweetness up,
And slips into the bosom of the lake:
So fold thyself, my dearest, thou, and slip
Into my bosom and be lost in me

"Now sleeps the Crimson Petal"

...I am a tree!!!...hmmph!

2007-09-26T04:51:24Z

So...wow...are the any other words? Wow.yea that's about it.............Um, this weekend is one of the best things in my entire life, I can't, I don't even believe there are words to describe what exactly went through me. I guess I'll simply say that some things inside me are quieted, some things are finally at peace.I'm trying to get myself to Rally, and at the moment it looks good, I just have to stay positive, and hope...Um, I don't know if I'm ever going to see the pictures from Charity, or Shannon for that matter ..>.< I have no idea if I'm going to Homecoming, although I've been asked..I miss morgan a ton, and we should talk more....I saw some freaking awesome bands, haaha. And school is making me want to take a screw driver to my eye. Oh Ben, um in the card there was this egotistical sounding line, that was a complete accident. I started to have a typo, and I didn't want to look stupid so I cahnged the sentence, and it sounded really narcissitc? sp? meh I don't even care right now, everything's perfect. Everything's perfect...
"Show me how you do that trick
The one that makes me scream" she said
"The one that makes me laugh" she said
And threw her arms around my neck
"Show me how you do it
And I promise you I promise that
I'll run away with you
I'll run away with you"

Spinning on that dizzy edge
I kissed her face and kissed her head
And dreamed of all the different ways I had
To make her glow
"Why are you so far away?" she said
"Why won't you ever know that I'm in love with you
That I'm in love with you"

You
Soft and only
You
Lost and lonely
You
Strange as angels
Dancing in the deepest oceans
Twisting in the water
You're just like a dream

Daylight licked me into shape
I must have been asleep for days
And moving lips to breathe her name
I opened up my eyes
And found myself alone alone
Alone above a raging sea
That stole the only girl I loved
And drowned her deep inside of me

You
Soft and only
You
Lost and lonely
You
Just like heaven

oh and here is a guaze pic, Alex, you can post what you like, I'll try to get them all to you, you can fix as you deem necessary

bridge!!!

2007-09-17T04:13:31Z

So.............
 The very talented Mr. Scottland Anthony and I were a workin' today. We decided to hang out, and what better way then to take photographs> hmmmmmmmmmmmmm?
 So we went to the amazing bridge that I love with all of my heart and soul, and had a fabulous time! The outfit included a cocktail dress, a trench, heels and gauze!! It was flippin' sweet yo'!! ^-^ OH I love modeling!!!! I feel as though I'm creating something beautiful everytime I get to do it, and Alex and I will soon have a tiny rendez-vous with a labcoat!! YAY!! I also can't wait to see the ones from Shannon, they should be here soon, and if I ever see Charity's I will eat myself (nods mhmmm) At least I will have Scott's by tomorrow...or I...will...kill...him.....
 Ah, and tomorrow is dance team try outs ^^ having a hell of a time getting a song though.. >.< And then wednesday t'would be my birthday, and my audition for fall play!! Haha my monolouge kicks ass!! I'll get it up here sometime....Oh, and then on the 29th I'll get to spend time with the marvelous Shannon, and yet again model. Gah I love it so much, it makes me feel free..which os nice considering how extremely stressed I am...TT.TT stupid honors and AP classesTT.TT all work and no play makes Sara a dull girl, all work and no play makes Sara a dull girl all work and no play makes Sara a dull girl, all work and no play makes Sara a dull girl, all work and no play makes Sara a dull girl..
 Hmmm, and the other day I bought a very wide variety of things on sale..Purple pants, a white (fake) corset, a Flogging Molly t, bathing suit bottoms (for next year, I've had mine for four years now),and jeans..They were all uber cheap!! But the oddest things transpired in the HotTopic..I found the Flogging Molly t for $7 and I take it to my mom to ask if it's ok to buy. She looks at me and says, "I didn't know you knew who Flogging Molly was." And I said," I didn't know you knew them." She then replies, "Oh yea, I used to see them in California all the time." Later we're looking at the wall of band t's and as I was eyeing this amazing AFI shirt she says, "hey I really like this one" She then proceeded to buy it !! O.O O.o o.O *shuuder* My mother owns an AFI t-shirt, and it's one I will own soon as well (so weird)
 She also asked me the other day if I wanted to get a tattoo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!My MOTHER!! Shouldn't it be the other way 'round? I have always wanted to get very detailed angel wings on my back, because of the significance they have had for most of my life..but there are other things out there that are pretty cool..any suggestion?
 She also adored Fight Club, and bought an Asleep by Dawn cd. *creepy* I don'tknow what's gone wrong!! Well, I'm giddy about going to Va, and being my birthday woot!! I hope everyone down there appreciates this, I'm forefiting a b-day party, Rennfaire, a photo shoot, and seeing Shannon, and Jelly!! grrr.....

does this sound about right?

2007-09-14T21:57:00Z

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I don't think of myself as an elitist, but meh.